Spring's slow approach

I don't know what to write about lately so I haven't written about anything. Many of the things I have previously written about are still happening and although they are still exciting and enjoyable, they offer up no new anecdotes. I am starting to get tired of trying to be incisive in these blogs as, I am sure, you all are tired of hearing me harp on and on about how wonderful this or that is, or what deep revelation I had a the top of some bloody hill. Quite honestly many days are a simple repetition of days I have already had. Things that were new are now repetitive things. Routine. And no one wants to read about routine unless the writer can write like Raymond Carver or Brett Easton Ellis.

Of course everywhere on earth there are people plodding through days doing things they have done already, over and over again. You might say it's not worth mentioning something so inevitable but I think there is a particular pique when one wakes up in the middle of what was anticipated as an adventure and realises they are folding linen, washing dishes, eating soup and riding the same stretch of road day in and day out. Strangely it is in the moments when I catch myself doing something so completely devoid of interest, that I imagine myself in a movie. It's the kind of movie where you meet the characters at their most monotonous, you learn about the minutiae of their lives and then it all gets turned upside down by love or war breaking out or a monster coming out of the sea and tearing through the city for no apparent reason. Imagining that the minutiae of my life might be interesting to the (albeit arty and tiny) audience of a movie makes them once again interesting to me.

I have become intensely aware of the changing season - all my senses are checking and double checking any possible turns or alterations. I want Spring so badly and man, you know what they say about a watched pot! God! It's infuriating!

Today Gunch taught me 'to be or not to be、that is the question' in the hometaal -
that's a nice thing to know isn't it?
生きる　か　死め 　か　それ　が　問題だ。